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A combative show-off once asked me, in the knowledge that I had no musical ability, “what instrument do you play?” With sophomoric tartness I replied, “The Pencil, but only in leads of 2B and above.” I told the guy I liked to paint and draw and that I could also coax a reasonable tune from an automatic camera. “Go on then! draw something!” urged the show-off.
To avoid such enforced “live” drawing performances, and I’ve been required to put my draftsmanship where my mouth is from time to time, I came to carry a sketchbook and a small portfolio of current drawings in-progress, in order to assuage amateur art critics mid-ambush. “Oh, you can draw,” is often the understated response.
I detest the conspicuous act of taking photographs in public, or Plein Air, if you’re an Impressionist. It provokes instant attention that is bothersome in the extreme. Explanations are requested and the artist is often asked to justify their very existence vis-a-vis ‘tax payers’ money,’ and venerable citizens doing a hard day’s work, especially those employed in the ‘Hero Professions.’ Invisibility, or at least what special forces soldiers refer to as being ‘The Grey Man,’ that is, as anonymous as possible, is just the ticket. Then one is free to potter about with a chosen medium relatively unhindered: Therefore, T-shirt and jeans is preferable dress to that of cravat and beret.
The montage below features 28 photographs taken at a close proximity to the subjects, from touching distance to ‘talking range.’ Details are caught at a glance, and captured in a similar vein. Compositions are framed and shot as quickly as possible, especially on the hoof in the street, but also domestically; maps, newspapers and notebook pages are shot in-the-lap and over-the-shoulder. A TV screen makes an appearance, along with a descending scale of early mobile phones. Views through 3 different windows are present, firstly, a car shot from the second floor table of a fast food restaurant as it appears to drive through/into/along a Burger King advertising sticker, the plastic membrane peels back accommodatingly to reveal the road, a happy chance surrealism.
A Photography Incident, Istanbul, circa 1998. Part 1.
On entering a cash machine service foyer, I noticed the image of a large christian-type cross on the floor, approximately 10′ x 5′ at a 30 degree angle to the wall, in front of three dispensers. Clearly this was no incidental abstract mark, the kind perhaps made by mud from a pram wheel. The image had been hand-rendered using, well, a very human substance. A man stood astride the cross as he waited for money.
Seizing the situation with both hands, I pulled a camera from my coat pocket and asked the man if he would mind if a took a photograph of the scene.
“You are disgusting, you want to take a picture of this!” He exclaimed.
I blurted out some vague and pretentious statement along the lines of…
“This is a tragic image which speaks of despair, greed and power, if you ‘d rather not be photographed, then fine, I’ll wait until you’ve gone.” I replied.
“Oh you think you are an artist? You are disgusting!”
Continuing in the same vein, I declared that…
“This picture will record truth. Anyway, it’s you who are standing in doo-doo to get your money.”
At this point, the man calmed slightly.
“You have every right not to take a photograph, but please refrain from bossing me about.”
“OK.” Said the man.
Part 2.
Photographing a cross at the base of cash dispensers, could be a contemporary version of Francis Bacon’s infamous Three Studies For A Portrait At The Base Of A Crucifiction, 1944. which depicts The Furies, vengeful deities from Greek Mythology, whose role is to “take vengeance on men, whosoever hath sworn a false oath.” And where might we find greater false oath-swearing than from within The banking system, or shitstem, to borrow an apt term from the Rastafari. Moreover, what is a cross in excrement, other than a shit stem.
A question is raised of why? and How? to represent abject tragedy, horror and despair in art? “But nobody wants to see that!” However, If artists and writers do not make words and images function as a cautionary warning, then as the Punks sang, “No Future Now!” In an attempt to thrust a humanitarian lance into the repeating wheel of history: behold feces!
Part 3.
Considering the crucifix, and to paraphrase the christian on the street, “Jesus died for our sins, so that we do not have to suffer.” Then why would a person daub a christian cross from excrement at a house of finance? Sick joke? Anti-capitalist dirty protest? Agonized teenage provocatuer? Drunken halfwit? Satanists-at-large? Dunno.
Alternatively, could this be an expression of despair, made by a human being whose life journey has reached a spiritual end. And what is the crucifix? Inhuman terms, does Jesus Christ amount to sacrificial waste, nailed to the cross, pierced by the spear, suffering so that the human race do not have to endure the same destiny? What is a cross drawn from excrement at the base of money fonts, except a sign that some of us find the conditions of existence a cruel torture regardless of faith.